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This chapter reveals some secrets so, I hope you enjoy it!

Grey is... © dee Juusan
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silver-sung Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Ahhhhh, Yaldar, is what Black said to Ameer implying what I think it's implying? :(
I don't want to say what I'm thinking because I don't want to spoil it for anyone who happens to read the comments before reading the chapter...
I kept on thinking Yaldar was going to show up in future chapters, but... :(
(I'm sorry, I don't know if this comment even makes sense)

This is so sad, but it's so good. I really enjoy reading your manga. :heart:
vya Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013
Oh god, I had no idea the intro of this chapter would already make me feel this way.. ;__; How Black looks here, how he is shaking, wanting to say something but obviously can’t or it stopped by White.

And damn you, Ty, for looking that good! Gosh, I fear little Waseem will be a heartbreaker one day. XD At least with his looks when he comes after his brother.

Argh.. I already said it but I’m saying it again. Of course change is something scary and many people probably want everything to stay as it is.. But.. you just can’t! Even more with a little child that just will grow up one day. And Black and White may seem strange to others but.. they’re really such good people! Even more with children. Hm. But I suppose it’s making sense for a mother tot hink this way. She doesn’t know them as good as Waseem does, she doesn’t see them through his eyes and she probably just doesn’t understand it like he does.

God, no, and Black heard all of this?! D: Great, lady… I mean.. argh! Yeah, while I can understand her and her fear to some extent.. Argh!! You know, these people have no clue about what really goes on in Black’s head and.. damn, yeah, that’s pretty realistic. Nobody really knows what’s going on in the head of others and yet we talk about them as if we did. D: That’s just not fair but that’s nothing new. I just don’t want White to be hurt in this way. Just when he convinced himself he was able to change, and when he really wanted to. Easier said than done and I think it is and it probably always will be a fight to keep this goal in your head. Her words are really not helping him. D:
But White is. :heart: Even though these dark thoughts are coming back to Black…

"pet his head and let me handle the talking"
I loved this.. XDD But yeah, maybe White is really better with words sometimes. Or at least with voicing his thoughts carefully. And Black’s reaction to Waseem’s question, haha..XDD
I love Black’s thoughts. He just stands there and while he is looking sad he’s kind of.. well, he seems to.. be able to deal with it. And he’s right about him balancing the things between Black and White. Even though.. Thinking and reading about Ameer just makes me really sad. :/ How White doesn’t want to hurt Black in this situation even though the truth is supposed to be better than a lie. Hm.. That’s also easy to say but to actually live after this saying..? Not so much. :/mean just take Black’s reaction to his words… He didn’t even knew what he wanted to say but he was so angry and I can understand that. To think that White knew something and just didn’t tell him even though he knew it was eating him up.. That hurts! And that’s not fair.

God, and it’s breaking my heart all over again to see Black like this.. ;___; :heart: Because I can understand him so much, he thought Ameer was his friend and now that he thinks he knew more than he told him.. Ouch.. :/
And to find out everyone knew except for himself.. Hm.. :/ So much for trust in others, in this moment the reasons of them being quiet doesn’t matter to him because right now he is just so angry and disappointed. Because now it seems everyone was able to handle this knowledge and to deal with it except for him.

I think you captured Black’s disappointment/anger/hurt perfectly. I mean it’s already so hard to put into words how I see Black here in this moment. And I know the feeling just not able to talk much when you’re in this state of mind. You just feel as if you’re about to explode and you can’t stop yourself but at the same time you just.. can’t really express it. At least I think Black looks like that here. He feels so much and wants to express so much but just can’t. So it’s kind of breaking out of him.
And now he is so disappointed and hurt by thinking there was more between Ameer and White than he knew of. Because no one thought of telling him. :/ seriously, you’re hurting me with this chapter this is.. so good but so heartbreaking at the same time. :heart:

Oh god..and go away, Lana.. just look at her being all adorable with White, I can die happily now because this just made my day.. I could stare at the little picture of them together forever.. :heart:
And the parts with Ameer.. ouuuch… :heart:

God, it must be.. it must be already so hard for White to express his thoughts and everything, but also for Ameer to listen to this. This is his friend we’re talking about , he has to listen to all of this and try to get him to.. well.. cheer up..? He’s trying to help him but it just.. damn, I can understand that this would be too much for him. D: (Gosh, and how White sees Black in his mind..<3)

Oh my.. okay, and my love for Ameer just grew.. :heart: the comparison between Blackk’s situation right now and a normal game.. Wow! That really makes sense, I’ll have to keep that in mind, I really like it. Gosh, and how he is coming to visit him to make him feel less lonely. :heart:
The page after this where Black can’t get anything out of his head.. oh god.. ;___; :heart: How the raven is coming back just like the thoughts.. I just love the way you portrayed that. Even though it’s so unbelievably sad, it’s done so well and it makes so much sense!

”You want me to only tell good things to you… where should I get those from?
Okay.. ;__; There you go.. breaking my heart.. oh my.. I mean.. damn.. that‘s intense.. I’m so in love with what you’re doing here and at the same time just want to shake you because I want them all to be happy! XD Sorry.. No.. this is hurting and sad.. but it’s really realistic and that’s why I like it. Well, that’s not the only reason of couse, but one of them. (;

I just.. damn, the things you’re making me feel.. :heart: And I have to tell you again the idea with the bird is just brilliant. The claw that changes into a piece of glass. Wow..
deeJuusan Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2013  Professional General Artist
awwwwww dear!
You know how lonely the job of a manga/comic artist is?
You spend days and weeks working on a single chapter and some pages are read in less than 3 minutes. It is a labor of love but people like you with blocks of comments, paying attention to every single panel there is,  it's just rewarding!
I truly deeply appreciate your support and the bit of happiness you give me with each new comment <33
I'm really lucky!

Sorry for the heartbreaking bits though XD
eda1102 Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2013
I just read this whole thing of yours.
I dunno exactly why I'm typing a comment, I guess just to let you know I really appreciate your characters and inner monologues you write.

I want both of these babies to be alright, but it seems so unlikely and it hurts so much. I hope they'll work it out somehow. I'll keep impatiently waiting for new chapters : )
deeJuusan Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Professional General Artist
awwwww thank you so much for the kind words!
Tobi-chan-Lissesul Featured By Owner May 31, 2013
Oooh! So good as always! And so wonderful intense. I always love it when you bring Ameer back into the picture, I think he's a really cool character. ^^
deeJuusan Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2013  Professional General Artist
Awww that makes me happy! I love when people care about other characters in the story! Especially Ameer
Thanks a lot Tobi <3
Tobi-chan-Lissesul Featured By Owner Jun 3, 2013
Yeah, no prob, keep up the good work!
Erica-Roy Featured By Owner May 26, 2013
This chapter was so intense and amazing!
Ameer though... YOU MADE ME CRY.
deeJuusan Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2013  Professional General Artist
Awwww sorry about that!
Thank you so much <3 ;~;
Chester-Loki Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Whoa... that was intense. THANK YOU! This chapter was amazing to read! :iconhappytearsplz:
deeJuusan Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2013  Professional General Artist
thank you so much Chester!
fatimasharw Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Hobbyist Filmographer
wight always handsome =_=
TaliC-os Featured By Owner May 25, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Oh Black ._. This is a rough chapter to read again - Ameer's death seems so... worst now ._. Oh Waseem's mom, don't depart him from Black. All that purity is good for him ._.
deeJuusan Featured By Owner May 25, 2013  Professional General Artist
Haha you sure like Waseem with Black! again, I'm happy to find that <3
I'm sorry for the rough chapter. But we gotta go into the tunnel to reach the light :D
thanks again Tali
TaliC-os Featured By Owner May 28, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Because I love Waseem, and I also like Black a lot xD

Oh, that happy chapter on your tumblr made everything better too /o/ xD
garden-fairy Featured By Owner May 24, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh NOooo dear Black ... :icontoracryplz:
I feel so sad for him; I'm going to cry

I'll be waiting for the next chapter ; v ;
deeJuusan Featured By Owner May 24, 2013  Professional General Artist
awww sorry about that!
garden-fairy Featured By Owner May 25, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I read the parts of ch. 18 before going to bed then I couldn't sleep because I was
thinking about it > u <

I know I've already said this before and I'm sure you've already heard many people tell you this, but ... you're manga is so beautiful in every aspect and I haven't ever for real read a manga that would suck me in like this one, take my breath away, make laugh, cry, and be involved in the character's life so much that I keep thinking about it all night :huggle:

You're really amazing Dee-chan please keep up your amazing work <3
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